Today is/will be day 57. After a week of dealing with a pained ankle, a fragile heart, and a weak amount of willpower…I’m starting to focus in on what I really, truly want. I am tired of failing. I refuse to let up. I want to do well in school. I spent one day outside of class working on my studies and actually enjoyed it. I’m ready to devote more time to that. I have been at home binging on Netflix while I waited for my ankle to stop harassing me, and now I can start hitting the gym everyday. I’m going to start with mainly cardio and stretching to avoid pushing myself too far too fast. My joints are very delicate and ill-tempered, so I need to be careful. I’m prepared to eat healthy and seriously cut out all junk food. I already know how much better that will make me feel after all. All of this being said, I know talk is cheap. I’m praying for focus and guidance. I’m going to try to avoid deliberately partaking in any substance that gives me a high other than endorphins, but I will still participate socially with my good friends who I will not give up. Day 57 is kind of my day 1 to be rather honest. Time to get my shit together.